This is life!

Faces grinning but when they look away they are screwing, 
Advising you but at your back they are cursing, 
Always there to help but they will always be the first to stab, 
They will always follow but they are never ahead of you, 
Trying to be the devil they are always disguised, 
As the angels come to help, the devils always stand aside, 
As they stood there and pray you fall, the angels carried you and hoped you rise,
They try not to collide, but they subside, 
Acknowledge the fact and stand aside, 
As they preach to you, they gossiped at your back, 
Bring your enemies closer, because you've got to watch your back. 

Beginning or the end?

As I gaze at the mountain top...I glanced at the steepy hill that awaited me..I felt a grunge around me but I hadn't realised where it came from..then I wandered if it was me but with what enegry did I have to breath or pull out a word.

I thought about how different things were when I was in this suitation..I wondered if people at home missed me or ever thought about me? I wondered if I would ever make it back to the real world..and then it dawned on me, the people I am leaving behind will they have a good memory of me or a vague one. That will course such discourse to my heart leaving me unsettled.

I heard a whisper but I knew not where it came from...looking left and right I couldn't see anything but a foggy white cloud stood in my way. I didn't know if I was dreaming but I just can't believe this is it...if I was lucky I would survive but right now I don't have that state of mind. 

Am trying to find inner peace like them things I see on tv when people are trying to relax like "yoga". Ah but this isn't like that, this is a different scenario. Argh my mind feels lost, am baffled, am not connected with my mind. 

Though I try not to put myslef down I still have hopes that I willl make it. As I looked down at the path I have taken behind me, I asked myslef " if I have come this far what's stopping me from finishing me journey".

Hear me!

Take my words as a sacred vow,here I am,
Like shiny diamonds glowing in the darkness of the night,
and as I am parting with you now just take me as I am,
The beast prepares for the survival fight,as for the prey its a final battle.
You are not wrong to point that my lonely days have all been a dream,
My sight has been blinded by the sunlight,
Yet it feels so cold inside..
Yet if my desired hope flow away in the mist of the day,
I hope someday I come back in a better way,
Gliding through the pitch block skies,
The clouds together just like a gate..but it opens,
There is my hope, there it flies..
Soon , it's time..very soon someone dies.