Beginning or the end?

As I gaze at the mountain top...I glanced at the steepy hill that awaited me..I felt a grunge around me but I hadn't realised where it came from..then I wandered if it was me but with what enegry did I have to breath or pull out a word.

I thought about how different things were when I was in this suitation..I wondered if people at home missed me or ever thought about me? I wondered if I would ever make it back to the real world..and then it dawned on me, the people I am leaving behind will they have a good memory of me or a vague one. That will course such discourse to my heart leaving me unsettled.

I heard a whisper but I knew not where it came from...looking left and right I couldn't see anything but a foggy white cloud stood in my way. I didn't know if I was dreaming but I just can't believe this is it...if I was lucky I would survive but right now I don't have that state of mind. 

Am trying to find inner peace like them things I see on tv when people are trying to relax like "yoga". Ah but this isn't like that, this is a different scenario. Argh my mind feels lost, am baffled, am not connected with my mind. 

Though I try not to put myslef down I still have hopes that I willl make it. As I looked down at the path I have taken behind me, I asked myslef " if I have come this far what's stopping me from finishing me journey".

Hear me!

Take my words as a sacred vow,here I am,
Like shiny diamonds glowing in the darkness of the night,
and as I am parting with you now just take me as I am,
The beast prepares for the survival fight,as for the prey its a final battle.
You are not wrong to point that my lonely days have all been a dream,
My sight has been blinded by the sunlight,
Yet it feels so cold inside..
Yet if my desired hope flow away in the mist of the day,
I hope someday I come back in a better way,
Gliding through the pitch block skies,
The clouds together just like a gate..but it opens,
There is my hope, there it flies..
Soon , it's time..very soon someone dies.

Just a dream!

Am stuck in a place, where everything hurts,
Having to choose between what is right from wrong,
I find myslef crumbling down,
Catching a glance at the world from the moutain top,
Seems like everything is gone..Just within that moment.

I have imagined life would be better,
Watching as the sun goes down and the moon comes up,
Looking left and right and wondering if am here alone,
Could this be? Could this really be the end?
Pacing down and forth I had no answers too those questions.

The worst part is yet to come to an end,
The worlds shaking, everything turns too dust,
I realised I have to climb that mountain alone,
My hope seems to be fading away,
Reaching at the top..the sky seems to be covered with darkness.

Its getting cold with no one left around me,
I can hear my heart beating faster and faster every minute,
Lighting strikes...the clouds are moving
I try not to look back as everything crumbles in front of me,
Am awake and realised it was only just a dream,
As I opened the door everything was normal,
And then I sighed "Am not alone"